Dear Someone,

Hey.. How are you? I dont even know what  to say to you since we stopped talking for a couple of months now. I guess i miss you.. I've been wanting to tell you that but i dont have the nerve to do so because of what happened. I really do miss you.. All the talking and txting and the stuffs we used to do together. I sometimes wonder if you think about me too. Well, I guess you do, but maybe not as much as i do. Im guessing you are mad at me, or maybe you resent me so much that you wouldn't want anything to do with me. Maybe you dont want to see me again ever.. Maybe this is really the end and we have to move on and forget about each other. It kinda hurts you know. It really hurts to think about goodbyes and all that letting go thing. But i guess that's what i have to do now.. And since i know i wont be able to tell you about this personally, i decided to just write down my sentiments on my lame blog. I just need to let this all out before i totally close the doors. I dont know if doing this makes any sense but i just got to let this all out!

Okay. So I am not mad at you. I guess im just a little... hmmm... a little.. okay! I guess im a little mad at you. I honestly think you have a cold heart because it was so easy for you to walk out on my life just like that. I dont know if that is the real you or you are just so good at pretending, but letting our friendship go is like a piece of cake to you. It's as if i've never been important to you. As if, we didn't became so close and all that we've shared dont mean anything to you. I understand that we've only known each other for months but our friendship is really something special and you know that. At least im thinking that you know that.. That's what i wanted to believe.
Well of course, there's always a two side to every story.. I dont know your side, and in the first place you never bother to let me know. All i know is you're mad at me after that last txt conversation that we had and that's it for you! Seems like you're really done with our friendship but hey! after a month or two dont you think its about time for us to talk once and for all? I believe it's better to sit down and talk and be angry--if that's whats gonna help us both! People get mad from time to time,dont we? It's normal! You can get mad and lash out on me and i will understand it. And if this friendship is bound to end then so be it! At least you will hear my point and i will also know yours. But keeping things hangin like this? I will never understand it. I think this is a dumb idea.Such a coward way to face our differences.

But what can i do? I guess there is nothing i can do but write this letter and finally put everything behind me now. Yes. Finally. I've realized i am tired of trying and i just wanted to stop caring or worrying. What's the point of still doing that? there's none right? And so im letting our friendship go. It's sad when  good things came to an end but life can be really that depressing sometimes ... It will leave you with no choice but to stop fighting and start giving in to it's tragic circumstances.
But please dont get me wrong, I am not saying that i regret meeting you. I dont have regrets.  But i guess at this point, i've come to realized that loving a person and caring about them so much isnt a guarantee that the relationship can withstand everything. There is no guarantee. Sadly, there is really none.

Now, for the last time, i wanted to tell you that i miss you and if in some place and time our paths shall cross again, i'll just smile.. With the thought that once upon a time, in a not so distant past, we have shared a beautiful, genuine friendship. Though it ended, we know it both made us a better person. So much better than yesterday that we will never allowed our past mistakes to happened again. Never again..

Until here my dearest friend.. I wish you happiness.. And all the good things i could ever think of.

Thank You for Everything.

Always,
Me.

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People change, feelings change. It doesn't mean that the friendship once shared wasn't true and real, it simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart.

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Forgiveness is always easier said then done… to forgive is to stop feeling anger and to stop blaming another, to pardon, to let go of resentment, to move on, even to stop playing the scene over and over in your mind. If this is forgiveness then for true forgiveness and to be able to heal and to feel inner peace again you must both forgive and forget…